irritating people

yea, 2 more days to go. sadly, the level of excitement seems to be dropping. 3 of us arent as excited over the trip now compared to a week ago. faced quite a bit of trouble dealing with the money issue(s), the luggage and other minor stuff. was kinda pissed when i realised alot of my relatives get to know abt my hk trip. the key thing is, they thought im going overseas with my bf (im really having the urge to scold vulgarities). since when did i have a bf in the first place?! and what, 3 girls and a guy? going with my bf? makes any sense?! damn, really detests the person who started this nonsensical rumour. this is really a big disadvantage of having a blog, something supposingly meant to be a sharing and updating session with my Friends and others who are relatively quite close to me (definitely not a big-mouth who doesnt think before talking).

it's totally annoying to be unknowningly under the control of these irritating relatives. have to care abt how they think of me not only in academic wise but as well as the group of ppl i hang around with, my circle of friends, and even my relationship (if im in one now). so please, let me broadcast and declare that I'M SINGLE, UNATTACHED, WILL NOT BE GETTING ATTACHED SO SOON, NOT AN AH LIAN AND STILL DOING FINE IN MY STUDIES.

and for those/the one who started all these rumours or who spread this to almost the entire family, stop before i do anything nasty. basically, my hk trip has nothing to do with you or any aunties and uncles. there's no need to announce to everyone, and this is a trip solely financed by my own savings. it's just a simple holiday trip with my group of FRIENDS (people who i have known for 6 years) after the mugging for A levels, and before we get back to the books few months later in university.

i should really cool down and not let anything spoils the trip any further. 2 more days to go, im sure the 3 of us will get more enthusiastic after tomorrow night.

Fun at the playground

cy finally uploaded all the photos we have taken at the playground. a VERY memorable night, had loads of fun, chatted alot, recalled abt our sec sch days, getting excited over the trip, laughing like nobody's biz & so much more. it just feels so good to have a group of friends you're so comfortable with. zero awkwardness, genuine laughter (:

haha, if you think these are all the photos we've taken at the playground... muhaha, you're wrong. i only picked those that i dont look ugly in. there are more on cheryl's blog and ive no idea why she always chose those that are looked so wierd/ugly in. :/

and the full set of photos are up on cy's space - dunstan's space. nice name arh. haha

okay, today is wednesday! which means... 6 more days to go! the three of us are so excited and we are going to have a stayover session this friday to get things even more exciting.

so... meanwhile, we shall just let carmen misses us at hk.

dont spend all ur cash carmen, WAIT FOR US! (:

i forgot to mention! i LOVE this blogskin! so simple yet nice! ahh... lovesssssss.

dread.

it's coming to the end of the week and im dreading to go to work tomorrow. hai, next week is going to be very hiong, reports to rush, 50 recruitment files to complete tmr. this time, i really dont feel like staying back in office alone to complete my stuff especially when there's this sicko agent who is absolutely irritating and born with a digusting outlook. i know this is very evil, but i really cant stand all his nonsense anymore. chao ah pek.

after nearly 4 months at ot, im now having the urge to leave and shift to somewhere new. the pay here is way too low and everyone finds it so. got a nice job offer that pays more, but sadly, im not able to start work immediately due the hk trip. to be truthful, there's nothing much holding me back in ot. yes, there are nice ppl around, but i guess im someone who needs to continously be exposed to changes, just cant stand doing the same thing for too long. 4 months, in fact, is quite amazing for peili. haha, give me the best luck and pray that that job offer is still available when im back from hk. at the same time, really hope that ot wouldnt be as short of ppl by then - so that i leave guilt-free, haha.


okay, intended to spend this beautiful sunday noon at home, with a cup of hot tea, my notebook and start joting down my plans for my studies, my saving plan, and probably to figure out what i really want to achieve yrs from now. apparently, im not doing anything useful and it's another futile attempt to use the weekend meaningfully. my mind is currently obsessed in the hk trip as i really cant wait to leave sg for a break from everything (yes, really almost everything, be it my job/university application/the scary ppl/bla bla etc) and hopefully i can return with a refreshed mind and feel more motivated (:


im gonna strive thru next week cause it's the last week to go before we fly off to hk!
same to cheryl and cy!
(nana, carmen is able to leave a week earlier)

adult affairs

those are the formal photos of me. haha, i still think i look like a kid, still look young and nowhere near 19? been mixing around with adults for the past 3 months and ive to admit, i really did wished that im older, or maybe look older. used to feel stucked at this age of 18, coming 19. the many-wants-but-not-enough-money-to-buy stage. the 'materialistic' stage. i know it's dumb to feel so when 19 is actually the age to enjoy teen life and do what you want without worries!

so, im now undergoing some self-brainwashing to get out of the adults' affairs (:

time to be back to myself and spend more time with ppl of my age before i change any further.

as for the adults' way of life, i shall leave it till years later, my turn will come......

it's tiring doing mind-reading, tiring to be confused by the different faces of ppl and to try to blend in nicely. it may be fun and exciting at first though. it just feels like... an infatuation, there's a need to wake up!!

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okay, im going to think and plan more abt my life this weekend!

a mindmap, a flow chart, and come up with decisions from the many many choices to handle now!

let's anticipate a change (:

im most likely getting my current phone's keypad and its siao camera for servicing tmr. so i went to pull out my old phone (the one that has accompanied me thru the almost exact 2 yrs of jc life) and im charging it now so that i can use it tmr!
browse thru that antique and found loads of memorable photos/songs which really made me think quite alot abt the past.
realised im missing out alot the fun that i used to enjoy and i found out that i might be seriously missing someone. it's not as the love love kind of miss but just... yah. (-.-)

........

i can't sleep, i just can't breathe when your shadow is all over me baby

don't wanna be, a fool in your eyes

'cause what we had was built on lies

and when our love seems to fade away

listen to me hear what i say

i don't wanna feel the way that i do

i just wanna be right here with you

i don't wanna see see us apart

i just wanna say it straight from my heart i miss you...

what would it take,

for you to see

to make you understand that i'll always believe

you and i, can make it through and i still know,

i can't get over you

'cause when our love seems to fade away

listen to me hear what i say

i don't wanna feel the way that i do

i just wanna be right here with you

i don't wanna see see us apart

i just wanna say it straight from my heart

oh baby i miss you, i do...

'cause when our love always fades away

listen to me hear what i say

i don't wanna feel the way that i do

i just wanna be right here with you

i don't wanna see see us apart

i just wanna say it straight from my heart

i miss you, i miss you i do...

i don't wanna feel the way that i do

i just wanna be right here with you

i don't wanna see see us apart

i just wanna say it straight from my heart

oh baby i miss you, i do...

and it's always this familar line in the lyrics that keeps playing in my mind....
"i dont wanna see, see us apart. i just wanna say it straight from my heart... i miss you."
-Miss you by Westlife.

saturdays

haha, finally able to blog up the photos taken during last saturday and yesterday. im busy, but dont know over what. went out with cheryl and cy ytd to get the vaccination, the nus openhouse and to bugis for a stroll. and... i have submitted my NTU application! still able to modify my choices though. haha... ive placed Visual Communications as my 3rd choice and since it's a arts and design course, i have to come up with a portfolio, a video clip and a essay by 1st april. how on earth am i going to find the time to do so, especially for the portfolio? i realised visual comm is the course that leads me to my dream occupation - editorial/publication design.

okay, enough of the boring stuff, lets take a look at the photos for the saturday(s)! hahaha, very much filtered :X

okay, time to go and apply for NUS!

uni

it has been a tiring day. been working non-stop today, looking at the computer for hours, cant help complaining that my eyes are really really exhausted. terrible. well, im still in the office now, waiting for the rain to get smaller before i leave this place and return to my cosy home. it's really time for me to get sufficient rest, havent been sleeping well for the past few nights and this is really bad. just got over all the frightening As and now im troubling over which course to take and how and which F.A method should i apply for. at this moment, i really feel that Money solves all problems. hah, look at it in a more pleasant way, it's more Challenging to strive all the way into uni with a poor or maybe just 'poorer than the rich' family background. the sense of satisfaction maybe greater if im able to successfully graduated with hons using my own efforts to loan/steal/rob for my tuition fees.

now, what am i going to choose? Tourism, Banking (both under business course) or advertising (under mass comm)?

then... what kind of loan should i apply for? DBS/OCBC/Citibank or CPF?
it's a headache looking thru their interest rates.
it would be best if there are companies willing to sign bonds with me. pay for me tuition fees and i promise im going to study and graduate decently. haha, come on, HC, RJ, AC people are definitely more attractive than me, so... dream on.

like what the agents told me, life's all about making decisions. just like 2 yrs ago, im back at the crossroad, choosing between a desire and a shortcut to quick money. i gave up tourism and chose to enter a JC cause im afraid im not good enough to enter uni after my diploma. and now, im having second thoughts for tourim cause im afraid i cant get a high pay in my future job. the thing is, should i follow what i did 2 yrs back and choose the "brighter" (as deemed by many) route, which is Banking&finance or go for something that i THINK i have passion in? i used to regret choosing jc esp in my first yr, but after receiving my results, i really feel glad that ive successfully taken the shortcut to enter uni.

what if my passion isnt going to last long?
what if i really cant stand doing banking cause it really turns out too routine?

haha, give me more time to think thru please...

yeyyness.

was trying to upload the photos taken at haji lane, but it was the third time im facing problems doing so. only managed to post some and i guess i'll have to leave the rest for my next entry (if blogger isnt going to give me any more problems). by the way, these photos are taken last sunday, with cheryl (:

much disappointment, haji lane wasnt as fun as we thought. it's just... a quiet and narrow lane, with shophouses that are different from the big shopping malls. there're nice clothings and accessories which you probably cant get it elsewhere, but they're rather expensive and not worth it for the kind of material. but still... i would love to shop there if im... rich. hahaha...






other than these outdated photos, ive taken loads of new ones on friday, saturday and sunday. totally enjoying my weekends. had loads of good food (:

friday was the release of the As results and enjoyed a great dinner at fish&co with cy, carmen and cheryl. baked salmon with rice is absolutely delicious! craving for it now. haha!

saturday was well-spent with the openhouse at ntu and the secondary sch gathering at xy's place. great catching up sessions with friends whom we havent been meeting up for a very long time. thousands thanksss to xy! gonna post the photos soooooon when i managed to gather all the photos from jc and cy.

today (sunday) was just so great. haha, went to IT fair (soooo crowdeddddddddddd) watched The Leap Years with willy. the movie was nice but just abit too slow. haha, like what sis said, it's a 3.5 stars out of 5.
oh yah, finally get to dine at Ajisen after craving for it for so long! big portions of ramen just nice for a di-unch (i mean a intercepted dinner and lunch).

feeling very thankful and a 100% happy this weekend! im really veryyyyy surprised and thankful for my results! meanwhile, it's time to rack my brains sorting out the loan issues and looking out for bonds and if possible, scholarships/bursaries. let this happiness goes on, pray hard for me to enter my desired course smoothly and successfully, at a resonable interest rate for the tuition fees.

time for bed! still have to go for work tomorrow... goodnight!

this week has been quite fun and at least a little different from the usual.

monday was a relaxed day, went home straight after work.

then on tues, caught a great deal at vivo with sis (:

met up with reena for dinner at vivo on wednesday and chatted for quite long. did loads of updating and catching up with each other. ahh... this feeling is... great.

on thurs, had a short OT with christina who kindly offered her help to pack the recuitment folders (: very nice of her... meltz.

hah, took a full day leave on friday due to the usual sickening cramp and aches which reminds me of the jj's sickbay. though those torturing cramps arent anything nice to remember, but the moments when cheryl, carmen, reena and qx accompanied me and sneaked in fries and wedges really made me love my jc life for once. so sad, cramps made me lose money cause ive to take unpaid leave. there goes my one day's pay......

so... in order not to waste the day struggling on the bed, i took panadols and meng chiong youtube, obsessed in the korean show "My girl". chiong-ed around 7 eps on friday and another 2 more today. im now left with the last 2 eps but dont feel like finishing it so soon, gonna be ultra bored after ive completed everything.......

this is my most recent video obsession and i wonder how am i going to find another show to make myself glued to the screen. any intro, carmor?

side tracking...... i found out that my angbao's cash is depleting!!! i havent even save any bit of it into the bank. im practically going to be left with nothing after tomorrow......

it's really really time to save up.

okay, tomorrow shall be my last splurge day. Tomorrow... LAST.
(untill the hk trip.........)

counting down to hk trip... 30 days to go :D