PEILI , PEILI , PEILI

im going off to chalet soon. HOHO!
got to bring some work to do there (:

sigh, willy's not going to blog for a very long time
anyway, ive a great day today with ernie, cheryl and yj ((:
with all the les-ing with cheryl and fondling with cheryl's butt

i shall lead my life like the way i want it to be...
and not to be too particular to others' behaviour
i shall be not that easily-influenced (:
hoho, PEILI will be back !
no more youtubing, less slacking.

Drowned.

For tonight, i really wish to be alone ;
best if it starts raining, and i shall off my lights tonight.
im tired, and need a nap ;
hopefully by then, i would be the one whom i really wanna be.
They say this would be a short transition period ;
i hope its true for i dont know how long can i indulge myself in this life of lies.

nothing's better than a shoulder now,
dont speak ; i dont wanna hear a thing.
the sky is dark and i really dont wanna return to the past.

i'll be fine soon, standing as strong and tall as before.
you cant help at all ;
yes, not even a little.
Sometimes all i need is moment of silence and isolation.
(: i can do it, alone.

cant help feeling this again,
somtimes a stranger can be as great as a friend.
i s*ck.

BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION (:


















































































we went to a Chicago dont know what restaurant today (:
it's located at cineleisure and the food there was pretty alright
the whole celebration turned out fun and we snap loads of photos and enjoyed ourselves
in neoprinting and shopping :D
HAHA, anyway, it's my SISTER's birthday celebration, not mine.
we bought a HappyHouse pencilcase and a watch for her (:
yep, 11 august is her bday, 1 hour plus more to go (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! (:

by the way, take a closer look at the SWOLLEN MOUTH PIG !!!
we saw this at a booth in cine then started laughing n laughing non-stop...
super funny la, click on it to have a clearer view of this funny creature !!!

besides that, shopping was fun as well.
we went round the town trying clothes and buying accessories.
hope my sister had enjoyed her day (:

im going off to camp tomorrow...
sigh, there goes my weekend.

Little Spirit


hey, this is little spirit (:
i made it by myself and for myself.
it was supposed to be black but i dont have enough black cloth.
HAHAHA!
and tell you what,
the eyes are made using the black cloth BIKILA use on the sports carnival!
hahahaha...

anyway, i got this idea from the show Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi
haha, and since ive got myself a new pouch
i want to have a new dangy as well
it took me near 2 HOURS to complete this little creature.
no, it's LITTLE SPIRIT.















come to think of it, its pretty lame. nvm, i enjoyed (:
....

DINNER for the sad and boring day













yup, this is my dinner! how pathetic...
Everyone's in foul mood today, and mum didnt bother to really cook.
father refused to pack some food home for us
some kind of father he is.
some kind of family this is.
ive to resort to making my own food...
threw some hotdogs and wedges into the oven
and made some wierd combi buns for dinner!!!

im not complaining, i really wish the family bonding could grow stronger ;
and so we would all be happier.
it's all the MAN's doing.
and as much as i dont wish to admit,
ive to say its really HIS fault.
Happiness is in his hands, our happiness and our future. he's taking everything for granted.
just imagine a man who is supposed to bear the responsibility of earning and supporting the family,
did nothing but returns home late, bathe and then went to bed.
you usually see him not more that an hour a day, talk not more than 3 lines.
we tried all means and ways ;
yet this man stays unchanged.
we then began to keep silence, and be like the most loyal dogs in this planet ;
awaiting for his return or change.
but for as far as i can see...
this day would never come till the day he's no longer independent.
the day when he needs you more.

FAMILY = 3 females.
i can live through it, for i still believe woman needs no man to survive.
but for the married one at home, she really needs love.
she's no slave of yours.
treat her better, will you?

the day when i can take over the role of being the Man in the family,
will be the day you no longer command any of my respect.
and the day will come soon. in 3 years time.
this is the reason why i always look forward to working age.

and if i ever become a lesbian, you're the reason.
you made guys seems as rotton as they can ever be.

let's end before the rain pours.
and i really hope you would change.

great day ? (:

i went to esplanade!! but didnt manage to catch any fireworks (:
it was crowded, very very crowded
haha, went elsewhere instead.
anyway, as usual we took funny snaps :D
hahaha...

BEGIN!

this is when we look absolutely fine and normal.
by the way, i just had a haircut and it turn out...
quite okay like this (:












and this is how we're going to look like..
if we ever go on diet (:

skinny wolves











then now! if we're going to gorge like mad,
this is the result
ahhhh...
swollen














Lastly, this is peili and the blind.
willy did nothing during the snap,
but he turn out looking blind.
haha, there's just this BLIND-looking gene in him.
:D













alright, i've finally went out with willy again (:
and outings with him are always companied by laughter :D
and for yesterday, it's all about an auntie who looks like
MC TAI ( mcdull's mother )
REALLY!!!
haha, and that inconsiderate Mctai keep leaning on the mrt pole
then, we just keep making things uncomfortable for her
by pointing out our fingers when holding the pole :D
evil hor? not my fault,
willy taught me that (:

BUT, mcTai didnt feel a thing !!!

alright. it was real FUN!

FIREWORKS

There's fireworks on tomorrow you know.
carmen is going to watch it with her parents,
rosaline's going with friends ;
reena going with andy.
haha...
I ALSO WANT TO GO OUT ON TOMORROW NIGHT!
sad case for me...
i haven even plan how to spend my tomorrow after the NDP celebration.
nehnehs, holidays are meant to be fun.
early dismissal are meant to be fun.
but what im facing is ;
who to find to spend this time with.
haha

anyway, ive got 76 for my maths.
mathai only calculated the paper once, so there might be errors.
haha

guess what?
im typing this entry at a offline status.
this stupid modem is so shit-ly useless.
dc and dc with tiny intervals for me to actually use it...
as though i was watching some channel 8 dramas ;
with around 6 commercial breaks in a one hour show.
yes, SIX. it has increased.

SOMEONE TELL ME HOW AM I GOING TO SPEND TOMORROW
so joyfully that i'll return home with a giantic smile hanging there
and even till i fall asleep.
HAHA...

let's talk about the upcoming Leadership Camp on this coming friday.
there BALLROOM dancing, you know?!
its something alot people are looking forward to.
BUT, seriously im not.
erm, no reasons?

oh yah,
and for tomorrow...
the leaders will have to stand at the field area during the NDP celebration ;
if you happen to see someone suddenly drown down the crowd
it would most probably be me.
haha, the speech is going to be damn long,
adding to that,
there are 2 songs to sing, 2 pledges, recollections, 2-3 speeches.
good luck to me heh.
ive squatted down during the rehearsal (which excludes the speeches)
and i seriously doubt i can make it tomorrow.
just hope it wont turn out too obvious.
(:

okay, maybe i shall end here and try my luck on the connection again.
hmm, im not complaining in this entry ah.
i think i still enjoy my life laa.
at least, ive those little dramas to keep accompained and occupied with thoughts
hehheh...
Ma wei hong, come online!

my FEAR

[x] the dark
[x] staying single
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth (after watching the doccumentary in sec 4 )
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] cats
[x] dogs (i dont wish to, but im really afraid of them, esp the big ones)
[x] birds (pigeons)
[x]spiders and/or other insects
[x] driving or being in cars (at very high speed ONLY. cause i'll start imagining an accident)
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched (erm, if they're people i know)
[x] fire
[x] water ( i cant swim )
[x] the ocean (i cant swim)
[ ] pools
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[x] germs
[x] thunder/lightning (the super loud ones)
[x] frogs/toads (if they jump on me)
[x] mice/rats ( VERY afraid)
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] cemeteries (of course)
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] demons or evil
[x] crossing bridges (only those wooden and shaky ones, eg, the palawan beach there)
[x] death (ive alot of stuff not done)
[x] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] being sexually assulted (of course)
[x] men (only PERVERTS)
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes
[x] hurricanes
[x] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[x] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[x] school (in lower sec, when my brown hair keep getting caught)
[ ] trains or railroads
[x] fear
[ ] being alone
[x] losing my friends
[x] being blind to things
[x] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[x] being murdered in my sleep

that's quite alot right? hahaha...
but some of my fears (dark, cemeteries) can be easily conquered by having someone with me.
yes, just ONE. preferably a guy or if not a tomboy.
cant be in a group, really.
it'll be very hard to ensure that everyone's taken care of.
(:

Carwash!




















too tired to talk about it,
haha...
the photos would be sufficient (:
goodnight.
im going for a walkaton damn early tomorrow.
yep, haven done any hw
haha (:

going BONKERS!

i think im really missing you...
somewhat and somehow.
there just seems no reason...
yes, i miss you.
Yes YOU, and not you (:
HAHA!

goodnight to YOU,
and ALL .

you're my dog (: ^

note: if you're thinking slantly that im in love, im telling you im not (:

in out in out, you're just not online, i want a chat that badly, aww.

yep, new skin (:

common tests are over! haha...
i was thinking about having a good break after CT
but seems like its impos now...
fully packed with all the activities.
wierd.

anyway..

my skin is gray again!
haha, i just cant withdraw myself from this grayish feel.
this kind of no absolute feel.
hahaha...

alright, im going off to bed.
tonight seems to be a lonely night.
SO
i shall rest early before my mood gets bad (: