changes

ive changed my blogskin again. hahs...
alright, i dont really dislike changes, and in fact i need changes.
recalling... i remember that ken dislikes changes.
i find it too boring to live a still life without changes.
but well, everyone's different.

okay.. not in a fine mood tonight.
probably affected by the song.
"Half-life by Duncan Sheik"

I'm awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear
before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear
It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends
maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down
lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time of any kind
I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you knowwhen i figure it out
but I don't mind a few mysteriest
hey can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

had some disputes with mum, hope everything will be fine the next morning.
i think im having difficulties expressing appreciation and love. hahs.
for now, i just wish to close my eyes and fall asleep.

and again, i promise myself that i'll do some homework tomorrow morning.
sigh.