Random thoughts.

when i get high, i tend to regret.
haha... as though ive had some alcohol.
i lost control of my speech and acts.
its not a matter of good or bad ;
but just no longer in the way i want myself to be.
):

and...

yah, i really hate it when people do stuff that really irritate me
not really that much of hating the person.
but myself instead.
i hate the feeling of disliking someone.
and it just makes me dislike myself more.
dislike myself for cant being even the least perfect.

...

ive been coming home late recently ;
walking pass that ulu ulu carkpark alone
and casting my very own shadow behind.
and know what it ive found out from this?

i found out that sometimes ;
what's really chasing after you ,
giving you all the fright,
and what you're afraid of ...
is none other than yourself .
at least, it seems pretty true for me.

...

i yearn for peace.
but i cant define this peace that i want.
haha...

Perhaps ,
its just like sitting in the living room alone
late in the night,
with the lights off
watching dramas (:

or maybe,
strolling slowly with some relaxing music,
in BORDERS, or some great stationary shops (:

hmm... this is best.
sitting by the windows of a cafe ;
on a rainy day
having a hot drink ;
with a notebook on the little table
and start drawing and scribbling on it (:


sad to say,
for all the above mentioned scenrios which i've pictured,
i was with no one but some ulu passerbys.
maybe..
its only when im alone then i found peace.
(:

felt so kinda in my own world today.
wierd (:
but, i must say im ALRIGHT (:
dont worry

im no longer yours, his, hers or whoever's.
let me walk alone.
or maybe with friends.
and definitely ;
you're one of them (:
thanks and sorry for all these and all.

we've came so far together ;
but i left alone .