far from demure.

i've lost my 2 first-time(s) this week.

it's the first time i've scolded the F word (yes, the fully spelled out version) verbally and in a really fierce manner on someone. i was really angered and i cant bear it anymore. well, i used it on clarence (my colleague) cause whatever he has done was beyond what i can tolerate. so, there goes my demure image........ really cant be bothered abt that at that moment.

haha, but of course, i wouldnt let things turn nasty so after ive cooled down, i started talking to him again -.-

my second 'first time' was lost when i blow my temper on christina, seriously, the reason is the same - i cant stand her actions anymore. they really appear childish/senseless to me. how can she assume i'll be as late as she is just bcos when she's on the bus, im still at home? (when im staying at bb but she's at woodlands???! and office is much much muchhhh nearer to my hse by the way???)
the angry part is--- she went to sms the manger that i'll be late with her???? wth?

okay, as you can see... my temper isnt really great these days... ive no idea why.
but then, if you need explanation, i can tell you the entire story and im pretty sure you would have been as agitated (or even more)...

i really must rennnnnnnnn...................

happier note:

im going for stayover session at carmen's place tmr with cheryl!
something worth looking forward to (:

last of all... happy 19th birthday to juchi (: