ace,sub-ace then ugly B.

going for tuition never fails to set my mind thinking. hahs, not really thinking about the subject (chinese) but the tutee's family. aunty christine (the tutee's mummy) was really good to pass me a bag of grapes for me today. i dont know why she did that but it feels real great(:
the grapes taste superb. not a single one was sour, and they taste like ribena!

maybe because of this, i start to ponder if im really a good tutor. i know it pretty well that my chinese isnt very good, able to ace in primary level. then sub-ace in secondary. hah, then now...
an ugly B.

i used to be very particular about my chinese grades. still remember 2 years back during sec 4 prelim, me and angela quarrelled with the chinese teacher just to seek for the reason why we only got a B for our oral. hahs, if i didnt remember wrongly, there's moderation thruout the whole cohord and there were ppl who jumped from a C to a A. imagine how unsatisfied we were back then. now, i couldnt care more. it has become a subject that i no longer love, no longer score and no longer want to pursue.

it's pretty obvious what has made ppl like me think this way. the emphasis on chinese has dropped so drastically. all we have to do is just to pass and no longer to ace. not trying to push the blame around, but it is true that that is one of the reasons that have triggered the fall in this interest.

haiyo~ i wish i could regain this interest but muhaa, this is already the last year im touching chinese. i would definitely feel disgraceful if im a chinese who cant speak my language.
in fact, im still uncertain whether LEFT = 'you' or 'zuo' .

hahs, how can i be a good tutor when im not a good student at all. i slept and yawn during GP lessons when the teacher is around. seriously, i do feel bad. but sometimes, or most of time, i cant control falling asleep. and the yawning, i didnt know it turns out so loud. i do feel guilty, feel bad. but for some reasons, ive this feeling that ive already been regarded as hopeless (almost) by most of the teachers. i've never felt this way for the past 10 years of education. perhaps im too sensitive.

but imagine, someone who have never pass a single test (or maybe just one) in the entire 1 and 1/3 year suddenly got second in class. would you applaud without any hesitation? hahs...
nevertheless, ive to get the strength somewhere to move on. im not in a circus to perform for others' sake. hah, am i like bringing out the rebelliious side of me?
hahas...




whatever the case, what's true and important now is... im putting in my best to tutor gary and hopefully he's going to get full marks for his Spelling (ting xie) tomorrow! :D

spur on everyone!
again, i had never want to be your competitor.