been thinking quite alot these few days to the extent that im having nightmares which are supposed to be a good dream. sounds confusing, let me explain. haha.

it's like this...

im always awared that my dreams (those that occur when im sleeping, not daydream, not ambition) are always the opposite from reality. im very very awared of that esp after the dream i had before receving my Os results. i dreamt that my grades are so bad that i cant even qualify for poly and have to retake as a private. omg.

so, last night, i dreamt that i dreamt that i was in the sch hall, waiting for my results. well, ive got ABB for my 3 H2 subjects. an A for my GP (how impossible) and a B for my econs. and because i know it's only a dream, it's not real, i started yelling, really yelling on the bed (i didnt realise it's a nightmare of a dream until i actually heard my own yelling). im fustrated, just because i know it's not possible for me to get ABB anymore since that has already appeared in my dream.

i think im really feeling the tension. it must be because my sis is getting her O's results tomorrow.

heh, all the best to her. my prediction is 14points, raw score.

apart from that, i think of alot other things. somehow, they're all sad stuff.

im seeking for motivation, to make wake up each morning, feeling that it's a new and fresh day. not another ordinary and routine day. it's hard, esp when everyone is handling with their own working life. shit, i really dont want to feel this way. i guess i seldom appear gloomy back in jj. always crapping in hokkien with reena, running around the LT after lectures to look for cheryl and carmen, talking rubbish with melvin, cheryl and carmen after sch, ponning lectures, gossiping, and so many so many other stuff. seriously, im missing this kind of life already.

it's so contradicting, i wish i could be younger but at the same time i wish im older, maybe in my twenties. somehow, i feel stucked and restricted at this age.

told you im thinking, thinking too much. sigh.

Life hasnt been as good as i thought.
i always think so that life after the big As are going to be very very much more fun than the mugging and schooling period. midnight movies, late night shopping, long hours of tv, going to bed in the morning, waking up in the late noon, meeting up with all my friends and talking long hours on the phone. Sadly, my life is farrrr farrr from expected.
what, im waking up 7am going to bed before 1am everyday. spent at most 3 hours on tv, 1 hour for dinner and shower, and perhaps 2 hours online.
many many tasks that i once wished to complete after As and before christmas. apparently, none are successfully carried out. room revamp? regular blogging? arranging my photo album? take more photos? i really dont think ive done any of the above.

maybe. this can be abit consoling.

a simple photo frame ive made and it's placed on my shelf (:



time for a little update before i lose track of my boring life.
okay, met up with willy on last saturday to pass him a shirt before he left sg for training in NZ.
the quite artistic photo is taken using his phone. really quite nice, isnt it?

then, on the same day, ive also met cheryl for shopping and melvin joined as later on for dinner.
we had longgg chat, talking about As, our results, our fear and our sec school days.
surprisingly, we've got soooo much to talk about and it doesnt feel weird at all!
it's surprising because melvin is like a complete stranger to us in bbss and we suddenly got close in jj. haha, sometimes things just turn out in a funny way. what else, we spent a few hours online together, sharing and watching jap and american funny videos on youtube. they're mostly cheryl's intro but i remembered the one which melvin introduced very clearly as well. a video on 2 girls eating shit. yes, shit, sai, really sai. damn gross.

hmm, i guess that's the latest interesting event for me.
working life makes me feel like im no longer a student and ive lost the momentum of studying.
please, dont ever let me have to retake As. i dont think i can go thru everything again, but alone.

My job is rather routine, not much of interesting stuff to do. however, the people there are interesting. especially, peter and paul. hahaha (:

let me get the desired results and enter uni happily. please please.

mcdull

wednesday, another typical and ordinary working day. at least time seems to pass rather fast today, making it not that bad. other than that, i found a mcdull cushion on my manager's seat!
it looks very very very cute. im usually not that interested in soft toys but this time, i really really feel like having one mcdull! an exactly same one! it's soooo nice to hug, just the right size!
what's best is it's stupid look can cheer up the day! tempted tempted, wonder how much it costs.

since my manager is on mc today and im knocking off soon, haha, i took quite alot of photos with this mcdull. only intend to take one nice one and that's it. but apparently, mcdull's head is way to big to fit in the picture with me. i tried quite hard, but still... couldnt get it the way i wanted.





okay, kinda buey chai si, taking photos with my manager's toy at her seat when she's on mc.
haha, but this mcdull is just too... stupidly cute.

haha, what a bad start. just a few days ago, i was saying im back. then im gone for two three days again. fell sick and all i did was work, go home, watch tv, sleep for the past 2 days.
im finally feeling abit better! not feeling cold anymore, FINALLY. ive been dressed in jacket, trackpants, socks and gloves. im really really feeling very veryyy cold.

at least for now, im just left with quite a bad cough without flam (is it spelled this way?) though. how wierd.

so, im posting the photos taken on saturday! with my mum, cheryl and her mum.

here's me and my mum (:


cheryl's mum and cheryl.

me and cheryl

the photo that i think i looked best in (out of the photos we've taken that day)

and i guess this is cheryl's favourite photo. haha

okay, loads of fun but quite a tiring saturday due to all the detouring and window shopping.

as for today, im pretty happy. nono, should be contented (:
tomorrow'll be a better day!

im back!

yeah, it's the 5th of jan 2008 and im back to blogging after deserting it for nearly a month.
ive no idea what exactly pulls me back to blogging, but i really think i sound quite useless. acting cool, saying that im not going to blog anymore and then, what. im back to blogging. haha...

maybe it's because ive really taken quite alot of photos these days and it's a pity not to post them nicely somewhere. besides, im rather free and really have quite alot of time to do things like blogging?

for now, im :

• working in orangetee.
• thinking of my new yr resolutions
• taking more photos
• worrying abt my results
• trying to start to arrange my photo albums
  trying to save up for the coming hk trip
• trying to do learn more stuff
• trying to fill up the free time im having, by doing interesting stuff (:

okay, on a side note. my mum and i are going to meet up with cheryl and her mum for a lunch treat from cheryl's mum. and it's just because my mum has helped her to buy the mattress sheet sets. how cool (:

time to go to bed! goodnight!