adult affairs

those are the formal photos of me. haha, i still think i look like a kid, still look young and nowhere near 19? been mixing around with adults for the past 3 months and ive to admit, i really did wished that im older, or maybe look older. used to feel stucked at this age of 18, coming 19. the many-wants-but-not-enough-money-to-buy stage. the 'materialistic' stage. i know it's dumb to feel so when 19 is actually the age to enjoy teen life and do what you want without worries!

so, im now undergoing some self-brainwashing to get out of the adults' affairs (:

time to be back to myself and spend more time with ppl of my age before i change any further.

as for the adults' way of life, i shall leave it till years later, my turn will come......

it's tiring doing mind-reading, tiring to be confused by the different faces of ppl and to try to blend in nicely. it may be fun and exciting at first though. it just feels like... an infatuation, there's a need to wake up!!

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okay, im going to think and plan more abt my life this weekend!

a mindmap, a flow chart, and come up with decisions from the many many choices to handle now!

let's anticipate a change (: