carefree.

heh, sneaked out of the room to come online. supposed to be studying for the chem test tomorrow but what am i doing now? haha...

suddenly i feel that im good in finding fun and happiness in sorrow.
hahaha, not that exaggerating though.
well, i think im so grown up after interacting with all kinds of ppl from the expriences i had in the holiday work. hahs, the world is frightening. nono, Humans are frightening creatures.
got to stay firm with your principles (:
but then again, genuine friendship really exists too. not easily built, and it takes time.
good friends are hard to find and having one or two is fortunate enough.
be true to people who are close to your heart. and have to gauge the amount of stuff to share at the approriate time and with the approriate people.
ive come to realise that saying more seems to do more harm than good.
it's a terrible time handling human relations stuff and it feels awful to provoke others and worse if it's done unknowningly. got to know what to say and what not to.
family members are still the ones who you can be forever true to.
(hah, except my father though.)

whatever the case, it feels good to keep reminding myself how fortunate im.
it doesnt matter how much im having, but how content im with what ive (:

ending off with something sad, i still cant change the image of me in mrs ong's eyes.
open your eyes big, ive been putting in effort okay, even if my results doesnt always reflect the amount of effort ive put in. as much as im trying to stay numb over this issue, im always reminded on how lousy im in her eyes. why am i caring so much? why? damn.

come a little closer, we'll make our way there together.