irritating people

yea, 2 more days to go. sadly, the level of excitement seems to be dropping. 3 of us arent as excited over the trip now compared to a week ago. faced quite a bit of trouble dealing with the money issue(s), the luggage and other minor stuff. was kinda pissed when i realised alot of my relatives get to know abt my hk trip. the key thing is, they thought im going overseas with my bf (im really having the urge to scold vulgarities). since when did i have a bf in the first place?! and what, 3 girls and a guy? going with my bf? makes any sense?! damn, really detests the person who started this nonsensical rumour. this is really a big disadvantage of having a blog, something supposingly meant to be a sharing and updating session with my Friends and others who are relatively quite close to me (definitely not a big-mouth who doesnt think before talking).

it's totally annoying to be unknowningly under the control of these irritating relatives. have to care abt how they think of me not only in academic wise but as well as the group of ppl i hang around with, my circle of friends, and even my relationship (if im in one now). so please, let me broadcast and declare that I'M SINGLE, UNATTACHED, WILL NOT BE GETTING ATTACHED SO SOON, NOT AN AH LIAN AND STILL DOING FINE IN MY STUDIES.

and for those/the one who started all these rumours or who spread this to almost the entire family, stop before i do anything nasty. basically, my hk trip has nothing to do with you or any aunties and uncles. there's no need to announce to everyone, and this is a trip solely financed by my own savings. it's just a simple holiday trip with my group of FRIENDS (people who i have known for 6 years) after the mugging for A levels, and before we get back to the books few months later in university.

i should really cool down and not let anything spoils the trip any further. 2 more days to go, im sure the 3 of us will get more enthusiastic after tomorrow night.

Fun at the playground

cy finally uploaded all the photos we have taken at the playground. a VERY memorable night, had loads of fun, chatted alot, recalled abt our sec sch days, getting excited over the trip, laughing like nobody's biz & so much more. it just feels so good to have a group of friends you're so comfortable with. zero awkwardness, genuine laughter (:

haha, if you think these are all the photos we've taken at the playground... muhaha, you're wrong. i only picked those that i dont look ugly in. there are more on cheryl's blog and ive no idea why she always chose those that are looked so wierd/ugly in. :/

and the full set of photos are up on cy's space - dunstan's space. nice name arh. haha

okay, today is wednesday! which means... 6 more days to go! the three of us are so excited and we are going to have a stayover session this friday to get things even more exciting.

so... meanwhile, we shall just let carmen misses us at hk.

dont spend all ur cash carmen, WAIT FOR US! (:

i forgot to mention! i LOVE this blogskin! so simple yet nice! ahh... lovesssssss.

dread.

it's coming to the end of the week and im dreading to go to work tomorrow. hai, next week is going to be very hiong, reports to rush, 50 recruitment files to complete tmr. this time, i really dont feel like staying back in office alone to complete my stuff especially when there's this sicko agent who is absolutely irritating and born with a digusting outlook. i know this is very evil, but i really cant stand all his nonsense anymore. chao ah pek.

after nearly 4 months at ot, im now having the urge to leave and shift to somewhere new. the pay here is way too low and everyone finds it so. got a nice job offer that pays more, but sadly, im not able to start work immediately due the hk trip. to be truthful, there's nothing much holding me back in ot. yes, there are nice ppl around, but i guess im someone who needs to continously be exposed to changes, just cant stand doing the same thing for too long. 4 months, in fact, is quite amazing for peili. haha, give me the best luck and pray that that job offer is still available when im back from hk. at the same time, really hope that ot wouldnt be as short of ppl by then - so that i leave guilt-free, haha.


okay, intended to spend this beautiful sunday noon at home, with a cup of hot tea, my notebook and start joting down my plans for my studies, my saving plan, and probably to figure out what i really want to achieve yrs from now. apparently, im not doing anything useful and it's another futile attempt to use the weekend meaningfully. my mind is currently obsessed in the hk trip as i really cant wait to leave sg for a break from everything (yes, really almost everything, be it my job/university application/the scary ppl/bla bla etc) and hopefully i can return with a refreshed mind and feel more motivated (:


im gonna strive thru next week cause it's the last week to go before we fly off to hk!
same to cheryl and cy!
(nana, carmen is able to leave a week earlier)

adult affairs

those are the formal photos of me. haha, i still think i look like a kid, still look young and nowhere near 19? been mixing around with adults for the past 3 months and ive to admit, i really did wished that im older, or maybe look older. used to feel stucked at this age of 18, coming 19. the many-wants-but-not-enough-money-to-buy stage. the 'materialistic' stage. i know it's dumb to feel so when 19 is actually the age to enjoy teen life and do what you want without worries!

so, im now undergoing some self-brainwashing to get out of the adults' affairs (:

time to be back to myself and spend more time with ppl of my age before i change any further.

as for the adults' way of life, i shall leave it till years later, my turn will come......

it's tiring doing mind-reading, tiring to be confused by the different faces of ppl and to try to blend in nicely. it may be fun and exciting at first though. it just feels like... an infatuation, there's a need to wake up!!

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okay, im going to think and plan more abt my life this weekend!

a mindmap, a flow chart, and come up with decisions from the many many choices to handle now!

let's anticipate a change (:

im most likely getting my current phone's keypad and its siao camera for servicing tmr. so i went to pull out my old phone (the one that has accompanied me thru the almost exact 2 yrs of jc life) and im charging it now so that i can use it tmr!
browse thru that antique and found loads of memorable photos/songs which really made me think quite alot abt the past.
realised im missing out alot the fun that i used to enjoy and i found out that i might be seriously missing someone. it's not as the love love kind of miss but just... yah. (-.-)

........

i can't sleep, i just can't breathe when your shadow is all over me baby

don't wanna be, a fool in your eyes

'cause what we had was built on lies

and when our love seems to fade away

listen to me hear what i say

i don't wanna feel the way that i do

i just wanna be right here with you

i don't wanna see see us apart

i just wanna say it straight from my heart i miss you...

what would it take,

for you to see

to make you understand that i'll always believe

you and i, can make it through and i still know,

i can't get over you

'cause when our love seems to fade away

listen to me hear what i say

i don't wanna feel the way that i do

i just wanna be right here with you

i don't wanna see see us apart

i just wanna say it straight from my heart

oh baby i miss you, i do...

'cause when our love always fades away

listen to me hear what i say

i don't wanna feel the way that i do

i just wanna be right here with you

i don't wanna see see us apart

i just wanna say it straight from my heart

i miss you, i miss you i do...

i don't wanna feel the way that i do

i just wanna be right here with you

i don't wanna see see us apart

i just wanna say it straight from my heart

oh baby i miss you, i do...

and it's always this familar line in the lyrics that keeps playing in my mind....
"i dont wanna see, see us apart. i just wanna say it straight from my heart... i miss you."
-Miss you by Westlife.