fatal addiction

"Quiting is hard, not quiting is harder "





hahs, wonder if you all have seen this feaking disgusting advertisment. the first time i saw it on tv was when im alone at home. i was shocked with eyes open wide wide. really scary.

according to my mother who reads the newspaper also everyday, this advertisement has received quite alot of complaints.

some people find it too disgusting to be posted on tv especially during dinnertime. and now, it's shifted to 8 plus at night. others mention that their kids went crying around, shouting "ghost ah, ghost ah" when they saw this ad.
hahs, even big kids like me feel the fear as well, kids definitely cry lah.


i find this ad quite effective as a deterrance, preventing people from starting to smoke, but cant really help the addicts to kick this bad habit.

hopefully all those tall cool-looking and pretty babes who have that fatal packet of tobacco fries would stop smoking for the sake of their beauty and health.

on the other side, i find it really hard for those extreme addicts who have been smoking for more than a decade to kick the habit. and they are mainly the uncles and ah peks who are regular customers of void decks kopitiams and turf club. i guess the ad wont be having much impact on them. they should be well-awared of the consequences and they definitely arent smoking to look cool or suave.



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apart from that, i had a pretty frightening nightmare last night. havent share it with anyone yet. shall talk about it now.

i dreamt that a very close classmate of mine... has decided to TRANSFER SCHOOL to PJ.

in the nightmare, she came to class in pj's uniform. i was stunned, i asked her for the reasons and she didnt really answer me. she looks very depressed, as if she must leave and staying in this class wont make her feel any better. =/ somehow, i feel that im the cause of it and i plead her to stay... but she refused. she's qx ):



luckily it's just a nightmare. but it's definitely something worth reflecting on.

im now down with flu and kinda hope it goes on till tuesday so that i can skip PC :X


salutes to those brave souls who are going for blood donation next week :D
ive no courage.
the tubes, the needles......... ahhhhhhhh
but... i'll try to donate next time (:

your smile, your eyes, im over it.

im finally sick of fastfood. made my own dinner for the previous two nights.
had western food (penne) on the first night and chinese food (tomyam you-mian) on the second. im proud to say im the one who cooked the dinners (:

im now afraid to step on the weighing machine. hahas... afraid that the reading has increased =X
haiyo..
actually im not fat mah, just heavier than my friends. my friends are skinny, not my fault (:





im beginning to feel dettached from alot of people.
they seem so foreign to me now. no longer feel comfortable chatting with them, and not to say meeting up with them.
it doesnt seem to me that its because anyone of us have changed.
maybe... we didnt know each other well enough in the first place?
hai ~

it's time to walk alone without you, my used-to-be emo guai chang.
ive grown up!
muhahahahhas............................................

ace,sub-ace then ugly B.

going for tuition never fails to set my mind thinking. hahs, not really thinking about the subject (chinese) but the tutee's family. aunty christine (the tutee's mummy) was really good to pass me a bag of grapes for me today. i dont know why she did that but it feels real great(:
the grapes taste superb. not a single one was sour, and they taste like ribena!

maybe because of this, i start to ponder if im really a good tutor. i know it pretty well that my chinese isnt very good, able to ace in primary level. then sub-ace in secondary. hah, then now...
an ugly B.

i used to be very particular about my chinese grades. still remember 2 years back during sec 4 prelim, me and angela quarrelled with the chinese teacher just to seek for the reason why we only got a B for our oral. hahs, if i didnt remember wrongly, there's moderation thruout the whole cohord and there were ppl who jumped from a C to a A. imagine how unsatisfied we were back then. now, i couldnt care more. it has become a subject that i no longer love, no longer score and no longer want to pursue.

it's pretty obvious what has made ppl like me think this way. the emphasis on chinese has dropped so drastically. all we have to do is just to pass and no longer to ace. not trying to push the blame around, but it is true that that is one of the reasons that have triggered the fall in this interest.

haiyo~ i wish i could regain this interest but muhaa, this is already the last year im touching chinese. i would definitely feel disgraceful if im a chinese who cant speak my language.
in fact, im still uncertain whether LEFT = 'you' or 'zuo' .

hahs, how can i be a good tutor when im not a good student at all. i slept and yawn during GP lessons when the teacher is around. seriously, i do feel bad. but sometimes, or most of time, i cant control falling asleep. and the yawning, i didnt know it turns out so loud. i do feel guilty, feel bad. but for some reasons, ive this feeling that ive already been regarded as hopeless (almost) by most of the teachers. i've never felt this way for the past 10 years of education. perhaps im too sensitive.

but imagine, someone who have never pass a single test (or maybe just one) in the entire 1 and 1/3 year suddenly got second in class. would you applaud without any hesitation? hahs...
nevertheless, ive to get the strength somewhere to move on. im not in a circus to perform for others' sake. hah, am i like bringing out the rebelliious side of me?
hahas...




whatever the case, what's true and important now is... im putting in my best to tutor gary and hopefully he's going to get full marks for his Spelling (ting xie) tomorrow! :D

spur on everyone!
again, i had never want to be your competitor.

TAN.KS BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION !

a great birthday party, with loads of delicious foods, thousands fun and loads of camwhoring.
muhahas, i think i really need a digi cam very badly.

it's supposed to be kimseng's14th bday. but the adults celebrated for him as a 15th lunar bday.
ma says that according to the chinese tradition, 15 years old is counted as an adult already.
oooo...

here's the large bday cake that costs.... 50 dollars?

and ks cutting with his big choco cake :D

of course... there's buffet !

hahs, that ks got his face stained with cream. great job everyone (:

we left this special piece of cake for him. there's his big name on it ;)

before the cake cutting ceremony, we have loads of camwhoring.
hee hee... really had fun doing these.

with my great snapping skills, i managed to get this cool photo.
the long legged two.

me & yy
jerald and me (:

this is around half of the whole bunch of us :D okay, this is kinda lame.

and this.... is definitely worse....

hehh-hehh... then comes my so called CREATIVE photos. I LIKE!

#1 the rebellious act.
we're just having fun, didnt smoke didnt smoke, dont catch us.

#2 the BREEZE series PART I

PART II .

and my favourite photo of the day...
PART III

looking forward to the next reunion during qing ming festival :)

COMPETITION KILLS .

yeyy, friday is here!

been browsing around, clicking here and there but just cant find anything nice to do.
school life has been alright other than the rise in stress level (:
i guess everyone is feeling the stress with all the comparisons, test results and peer pressure.
haiyo, it's hard to not to compete. though competition is not really a bad thing, i prefer to live without it. sometimes, competition just spoils friendship and perhaps makes someone seems more vicious.
dumb, i think ive been expressing my dislike more and more obvious these days.
got to admit, im a super super Bias person. sorry if you appeared freakingly noisy, kiasu, and samba-ish. ive got high level of irritability. whats worse is ive got mood swings in the morning. better stay away from me between 6 to 8am. muhahas, you'll see the devil side of me, im sorry ;)

whatelse...
oo, the channel 8, 7pm show is reaching its final episode ;(
see.. from the show, we can understand how frightening competition and jealousy is.
come on, lets stay away from that evil freak.
think about the self-fufilment, the peer support, the encouragement, the feeling of working towards the same goal TOGETHER.
why compete, why compare? they do more harm than good.
we're all moving towards the same goal, hoping to enter uni. we dont have to kill to suvive, neither is it to such an extreme that only the strongest surivive mah.
we can all enter uni TOGETHER. yes, why not?
it's not like as if an additional good scorer gonna decrease the chances of you being one. siao, so long as you have the real knowledge, you can do well too.
why not give a pat on the shoulder SINCERELY when he/she did badly for the test, encourage him/her so that we all can reach the same goal together?
when your friend has done better than you did, feel happy for him/her and ask him/her to push and motivate you :D
siao siao ppl.

haiya, headache.
my sis finds me childish, discussing and handling such stuff. hoohoo =X

RANDOM.
i want to be slim! though im NOT VERY fat.
but i really like the feeling of being skinny lehs.
erm, bless me with qx's or reena's kind of slim-ness, i'll be happy enough :D
ooo.. i LOVE PC (JJC's pe lessons) . . !
you believe ahh, dumb =S

humans are greedy, so i want to be like her (the girl above) one day....

but this one day will never come, cause there's only MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY, SATURDAY and SUNDAY.

where got ONE-DAY?

better run before i got beaten up for this. goodnight! =X