happy 3 friends

ive got something to say...

im back to blog after disappearing for near a week. life's so packed with schoolwork, school politics (as usual), and ive been grasping any available time to catch some sleep. sounds so much like a hardcore mugger, but nothing much has been done actually. for the thousand and fifth times, ive been drilling myself to START revision. buttt... heh, still haven touch on any subject.

felt pretty great this week in sch. somehow im getting more attached to qx and rc. i mean, thats how i feel lah. feeling more comfortable with them, especially when i get to know abt how fragile the other group is, i was amazed that the friendship between the 3 of us stayed firm despite the differences we share. hehs, strong and steady it shall stay (: whats more? we're meeting up on this coming sat for some shopping and a little of camwhoring. hopefully the pictures will turn out nice and sweet.

talking more about the differences we share, i guess im the in between among the 3 of us.

i always got this feeling that they're the 'extremists', having very strong and assertive views on things. im easily swayed... and sometimes too easily. hahs...

and i know it's hard for ppl to believe that im actually the eldest. haiya, cant blame.

i wonder why i blog about these. today's definitely not the international friendship day...
nvm, just being random then.

hmm.. come to think of it, we didnt get to see each other's emo side before...

ending off with my favourite photo of the 3 of us (:

loads of love :D
all the best to qx tomorrow!

smashed.

just finished watching the 10pm channel u show.
it's an inspiring show, about a girl who chose to drop out from school cause she dislike studying and didnt know what she wants to achieve in life. however, she came to realise that she has a passion for fashion design and started working from scratch. she was lucky, her grandpa was a great tailor and she has a mentor who is the famous fashion designer, nick yau.

today's episode is nice. the girl receives recognition for her first workpiece. she feels elated, it's the first time she ever worked so hard for something, and her effort was rewarded.
at the moment when the girl was so happy that she teared, i feel the urge to tear as well.
feeling happy for her was one of the reasons, but disappointment in myself was another.

getting reminded of the long hours i spent in the kitchen trying so hard to study for the maths test, the nights when i made myself study in the room instead of joining the family for the tv shows, the effort that ive put in to stay awake in lectures, and the fact that all these havent been paying off, nearly drove me to tears.

it's unavoidable for me to start questioning myself. am i really not putting in sufficient effort, like what the teachers always like to assume? whats wrong? or rather, what went wrong?

friends gave me lots of motivations, and thanks (:
but i guess what i need is really SM. hahs, self motivation.
i wonder how much more can i still put in, and how long can i work with this morale.
sounds so mugger, hate it.
im fine. im still fine...

i actually dislike talking about school work on my blog. but somehow, i feel that i really have to let it all out and move on.

oh come on, whats the big deal?
i wish i could still be as happy-go-lucky.
but it's different this time.
where im heading and what's my future is set here, now.

loved (:

LOVED!

ordinary morning, nice noon and awesome night.

heh, thats a sweet and simple description of my 18th birthday.

was pretty sad in the morning cause i thought my friends wouldnt be free to accompany in after school. besides, there's supposed to have gp extra lesson. was having a foul mood but i guess i hid it well.

seems like the god has planned it well, gp was cancelled last min and friends are willing to pon their lessons to catch a movie with me.

sadly, because of chem tutorial and the tutor, ive missed near 45 mins of the show. was kinda pissed with the teacher cause she failed to understand alot of things, i guess ive shown a little attitude in my behaviour.

nevertheless, she didnt manage to spoil my good day! i still feel as LOVEddd! "D

ive classmates that rock,

an ex-clique friend who still cares to prepare such a sweet gift despite the fact that we've seperated,

2 primary school friends who still remember me and my bday,

a bunch of secondary school friends who never forget my bday,

an ex colleague who wished me happy bday online,

a brother who calls me at 12am sharp,

a soulmate who smsed me,

a sister who bought my fav durian crep for me,

a mum who bought my fav wheat prawns,

a bbss melvin who wished me a belated bday this morning,

an og mate who left me a bday comment,

a gang friend who sends a super cute msg,

a simple greeting from cy,

a cake plus movie treat from the best friends,

and a cheerful and joyous day with reena and qx who sweeten my day with candies and cookie.

and not to forget the 4 wonderful cards ive received.

they really made my day (:

so much for the mushy stuff, it's time for me to shout out that the movie, 200 POUNDS BEAUTY is superbbbb!!!! it's definitely a MUST-WATCH movie, with the gorgeous lady who has a fanastic voice that can meltttt you... moreover the songs are soooooooo niceee!

okay, last of all... i really love everything that ive received for my bday! thanks everyone! (:

immature kids

those immature youths.

it has been quite a long time since i last reached home before 6.

and it's super unpleasant to reach home so early. not because that home isnt a great place but the neighbourhood is the problematic one. and it's all because it's situated very near to a secondary school.

okay, im kinda pissed by what i saw this afternoon.

that immature kid... he bought a cup of bubble tea and instead of making full use of his parents' hard earned money to enjoy the drink and the pearls, he shoot it all around.

damn, did he know how disgusting it is? im sure some of his saliva came out together. and what, im so near to him, what if he accidentally shoot me?

im gonna wash myself and ask him to pay for the soap. i wonder where's his brain........

whats next? i saw a bunch of guys yelling and chanting those uncivilised words at the void deck. if only you were as good in ur studies. study la, sweepers to be.

okay, this is damn evil. but kind enough not to mention the school. they smoke, they smoke and they smoke at the STUDY CORNER just below my block. there's once when i shouted "stop smoking la, smoke till you die" from the kitchen and i quickly squat down when one of the ah bengs looked up. hahas, humji but thats safer. what if he come up with a knife and look for me?

i want to complainnnnn!!!! hahas... no lah, i guess i'll just avoid reaching home too early. it's too noisy and disturbing. guess the only thing that i can do is to SLEEP.

alright, after playing ISKETCH for around 2 hours, it's time for a nap and then do hw.

teehee, im 18 tomorrow.

so unkind to talk bad about others, especially on today. hahs... im just venting out though and i dont mean the part about the "sweepers to be".

hehs...

a day to remember.

A day to remember (:

really had a great time last night. im feeling so happy as though it's my bday celebration...
hahs, but im taking it as my mini bday celebration #3! since it has been a real long time since im out till so late. muhaha, i reached home at 5am this morning.

whats more? i get to know huiting's friends who are so nice and friendly, played new games and had rounds and rounds of card games. all thanks to huiting who organised this 'surprise' bday celebration for willy, the botak (:

and im so so glad that he finds the gift useful!!! all the headache is paid off. weeee~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOD!
shit, getting too used to calling him god.

waaaa........ i still cant get over it.
the bbq, the people, the night breeze, the long walk, the games, the cake smashing, satay sauce splashing and even the way home.

luckily, we still managed to take some pictures. im real HAPPYY, i swear im :D
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oh yah, i forgot to mention that mini celebration #2 is the dinner i had with my mum and sis.
it's a simple meal of zu cao (ze cha), but at least we all enjoyed the food and the ambience (:

i only i can have another yesterday...