the 111st entry.

The 111st entry.

it's a warm saturday night and im here typing my 111st entry. looking back and comparing it with present, i guess life has become rather good for me. well, at least ive walked out the partnered life, moving on to somewhere new. whats great and worth commenting is that i've got willy with me since then till now. someone whom i used to define as unfathomable and deep. not saying that he isnt now though. and if i didnt remember wrongly, he's the one who suggested blogging and tempted me to blog.

other than that, as much as i feel good that life's better now, im wishing for a even better life. hahs, this shall not be deemed as greed cause this better life that im referring to isnt a materialistic one. haha, i actually wish for a healthier life! not just in terms of phyiscal health, but in terms of the soul and the relationship with nature and people. or maybe i should call it the Right life. really got to agree that life's short and unpredictable, hence wouldnt it be best if we can live thru each day happily? it's hard though. omg, i think i should stop here. these thoughts are heading nowhere and i really cant express them clearly. they are swirling aimlessly in my mind. or maybe.. i just dont feel good tonight...

it's like as though... ive wasted another week of my life.

and the blog was named glinted cause im yearning so much for a spark to light up this dull life.

my charles and keith, im coming!

my charles and keith, im coming!

not having much content to blog about, i shall talk about the stuff im going to get for myself soon! and if possible, it would be tomorrow! hahas...

it's kinda materialistic and im like.. spending future's money, like what carmen did too... hahs...
but im really soso attracted by the shoes, seen it once and kept thinking about it already. dead, ive been controling this temptation for around 2 weeks. it's simple amd nice! hahas...
actually, ive went to the outlet at causeway today but my size is out of stock!!! is size 37 really that common? sigh.

other than that, the diva 3 hearts necklace is also tempting me!!! again, it's another simple and nice necklace... hoho... maybe i shall treat these as christmas gifts im going to buy for myself and also as a form of reward for my wonderful endurance in the tough and tiring job.

hahs, wasnt really completing homework on time. what's worse is my mother is constantly nagging and restricting me to go out on my precious half Saturday for shoppings and outings!!
omg, im already panicked enough and with her constant nags, im going bonkers!
but well, i know she's concerned. blame myself for sharing too much about my stress. 'darn, i feel bad...' sounds so carmen huh. hahas... gosh, i think im too attached to carmen... got some of her dumb habits here and there... her stupid facial expressions, emoticons and we really have a common bad habit... we reply to sms very slow, to the extent that we dont reply most smses. HOHOs...

enough of carmen, i havent seen her for near a week. feeling kinda not used to it. hahs, and ive got this feeling that if i were to lose contact with my friends for a month or two, i'll definitely feel dettached from them.

baa baa ha ha ...
okay, random. (so carmen again)

peace or maybe, loneliness.

it feels as though im going thru some character development programme, or rather a test of my preserverance.

yes, i feel digusted. digusted by their biased behaviour, worn out by their bad attitude. it's not that difficult to have the feeling of giving up, yell back and resign. but think again, this is reality, a matter of time that i have to face it.
so might as well take this so called training now. make myself a tougher person by not giving in to such challenges easily. and this is what i defined as the right attitude. and really, Attitude matters alot.

sighing doesnt solve anything, then might as well face everything with smiles, self encouragement (though it would be self deceiving at times), self motivation with the goal of becoming a better and happier person. fret not, look at the positive side - the final destination definitely benefits.

well, then for the ones who lead without gaining much respect from the members, they ought to suffer from failure one day. hahs, they will be overtaken! ( by people like me, hohos.)
in my point of view larh, no matter how high a position someone maybe holding, he/she has to be able to set a good example, respect others and command respect as well.

but.. it's easy to understand this ideology but definitely not easy to constantly have this mentality in mind. the yearn for the comfortable bed, the urge to rebutt those bossy staffs, the approaching school days are really pushing me to give up. tired is the word that best describe how im feeling now. so much so to the extent that i cant even find any inner peace even in my sleeping hours. work, studies, and emo stuff are always on my mind. they are ever there, even in dreams. tired, but cant fall sleep. hahs..

all that i wish for is perhaps some quietness, some peace, somewhere near to the extreme extent of solo-ness/loneliness. and again, the atmosphere of the rhythmic drizzle, a window side cafe, a cup of hot chocolate or tea, a not-that-thick stack of notes and some stationary. of course, with me being clothed in long sleeves or jacket, and with my mp3 for the all time provision of music flowing peacefully into my ears. and if you realise, there's only me and just me in the whole portrait.

i guess it's normal for everyone to go through this feeling of being trapped when life is getting packed and busy. normal to wish so badly to shout out loud, to go hiding (i mean being alone) for a day or two, to just knock out and sleep more than just a night. or maybe i need more time than others for emotions and thoughts. whatever the case, im gonna stay positive, carry the right attitude and love life... this is then the me that i want to be. PEILI (:

now that everything's gone, im starting to feel the ache.

went out after work on friday and on the weekends. well, it has been quite a long since i last went out with sis alone. and we dressed in pretty similar outfits that day and had a walk in vivo and town. redeemed a very nice xmas cake and couple gingerbread man from mariott hotel as well. hahs, how nice...


blogging for the sake of keeping memories, i shall post these photos that can tell more than what words do.

the couple gingerbread man

the nice xmas cake.

heh, sis looks nice in the photo above, but not me. hahs...



here's the photo of us in similar outfits.

then i guess she looks a little funny here... hoho.

other than that, ive manged to meet up with the group for dinner at adam's road and some chats in a nearby mac. hahs... below are the photos taken :D

back from hospital and have not shower. heh, my day is packed once again and i cant do hw again! hahs... anyway, after working for 3 days, i feel that studying is really much much better!

competition is so fierce in office, stay out of trouble - stay low profile.
the lower educated ones just dont seems to understand the meaning of mutual respect.
heh, so what if you're more experienced? heh, that doesnt give you the right to push the blame, to give all the shit work to the new ones and just play your part by yelling and shouting.
come on, it's easy than shit to be able to read your mind that you're actually afraid that the part-timers might overtake you simply because you're lower educated.

i mean it's common for one to feel threatened, but it's a better approach to gain the respect of others and it would then be natural that everyone will regard you highly and treat you as the leader. come on, you're simply misusing your limited power.

studying is much individual work, .. better! haha... but of course, we have to work one day.
and if given the opportunity, i would want to do the frontline work - direct interaction with customers (:

and really... it's the first time im not enjoying my job.
aww, i miss gift wrapping so badly...
i stil have to work tomorrow.
five-day-work-week? never.