thoughts

back to office this morning, brought all the small gifts for colleagues & met reena for dinner (at kim gary again, hk food AGAIN, simply missing hk too much). v sweet of her, bought a very nice bangle from bangkok and i just hope she wouldnt mind the very traditional-looking pouch and the customized keychain. things went well & smooth but just again, too routine. totally missing the very lively and happening atmosphere in hk. everyone are boldly dressed, showing off their unique style to the max. streets were nv quiet/dull, everywhere seem to be crowded, very much unlike sg (only town area are lively). hah, but then, i guess life's much complicated there compared to here in sg where everyone seems to have a peaceful, simple life which can be boring sometimes. okay, enough of the comparing, im sad to say im not in the mood to blog abt the trip today ( since none of my friends are, everyone's lazy) let's hope these memories still stay in my brain till the day i blog it all out. haha.

side tracking... im now very enthusiastic abt university, very much wish to get back to books & school life. i know you're going to find me sick, but seriously, this holiday is getting far too long and ive got nothing much to do/lazy to try to do anything new. talk about doing albums for the hk trip, i seriously doubt my ability, considering that im even lazy to blog & post the photos. and what.. baking?! i missed one session at carmen's place, and the other time, i only managed to go and taste their results. what else... reading a book? i didnt even managed to finish more than 20 pages and it's already due. hah, i sound so useless, i know. im going to start on something new (im saying this AGAIN) and meanwhile, let's just pray hard hard that ntu/nus is going to accept me (for the desired course, of course) and also... pray hard hard that that chao ah pek in the office gonna stop appearing cause he's freaking irritating & yet i cant vent it out on him! get it straight, you irritating/noisy/disgusting/smelly/short/black ah pek, you're trying far too hard to get attention, why dont you just spend ur time on getting more deals rather than roaming around in the office?!

okay, feeling much better after all the rantings. im getting really vulgar these days & i know it's bad, very bad. restricted myself to type out all the vulgarities and im trying real hard. there's just this uncontrollable anger in me and ive no idea where to release! shit, and for all the another issue, ive yet managed to get over it, still very bothered by it & still dont understand why ppl want to do stuff like that. $$$$$$.

after friendster-ing for a couple of mins, i really start to feel fat. feeling lost? because friendster-ing suddenly made me feel that slim ppl looks very much nicer. (haha, i just feel a little bit too ba-ba, just abit slimmer will do pls) got to exercise, but how? when i can only get back home earliest by 7pm & sis isnt around at this hour? not that it's not possible... but it's hard. "It's so hard... - by maritas" (inside joke). anyway, too much friendstering is bad cause it makes you compare yourself with others, and just ended up feeling bad abt yourself, got your self-esteem lowered, and worse stuff. got to feel good of yourself, no point comparing, etc (i know you would say...), but again... IT'S SO HARDDDD... (with marita's accent) hahaha.

things that made my day are... cy's nick with the "xixi bao bao, perking and other funny cantonese we've learnt in hk). it's wednesday today, 2 more days to weekends. this is how dreadful im feeling :X

okay, this is a really long entry and im ending with a super boring sentence...
it's time for me to go to bed AGAIN, goodnight.