Taking the first step. making a difference.

im having cip rep gathering at west coast park tml...
guess it's going to be pretty tiring. and i think im most probably the only girl joining the guys to meet earlier to get the food and stuff.
It's the first time im walking out of this quiet life and step into another world which i always hope i belong to.
Being busy and involved was never my style, though i always long to enjoy a more active,
busy and diverse life, hanging out with loads of different kind of people, and
managing well in studies at the same time as well. =) carmen is my idol. hahas... (:
i just hope everything's going to turn out fine,
the outing's gonna be fun and im really going to make a difference in my life tml. (:

Life doesnt revolve around just one soul that was once clinched to your heart.
Get over and move on.
ive been psycho-ing myself for days but it really doesnt seems to work.
Am i going to move on this way, alone. and for the past two years plus,
i have been partnered.
This sudden drive of loneliness is somehow killing me.
Whatever it is, ive got to change.
ive got to make myself more sociable and involved. =)
sleepless night - no-more. (:

Songs stimulate my mind to rewind back to those beautiful moments i was once luxuriated in.
Probably, im missing and have missed everything.
what's there to impel me to forget and move on?
Mor, im counting on you, for you're the one whom i idle most of my time with.
i love your companion. Not to forget, others as well. (:

`if rewind-able. let it be the 8th aug '03.
and that's when we first chatted.